×overthinking

Actually, I’m scared to fail on this, to fail on everything. I just shut up and stays at the gloomy corner. Looking at the ceiling, blinking a couple of times to stop the tears and fears. Failing at something will always drag myself down,drag myself into pain and disappointment. The dark happenings to me that I don’t want to be redundant like it’s always turning out to the noise of judgement by other people. When I fail, I’m scared for the others eyes and mouth focusing on what I did. Failing that makes myself crave to try again or should I? Asking the what if’s and would I learn something after this? Is failing is learning? Should I take the risk? Or lose the chance again.